Two things I’ve come to realize over the past year are that my obsession with my blog borders on unhealthy, and my parent guilt is annoying.
Every minute of every day has me thinking about, tweaking, working on my blog, and sometimes I have to put my laptop in a separate room to keep me from jumping on just to check my Facebook page for a sec, or pinning a few more DIY projects.
The judgmental part of my brain keeps telling me I’m not paying enough attention to my kids, not teaching them enough, not feeding them the best, healthiest foods possible, setting poor examples for them, and so on. In fact, just writing this is making me start to hyperventilate.
No wonder I’m so in love with naps. Many times I don’t even sleep, I just crawl into my big, soft bed with my yellow comforter, take a few deep breaths, let the world disappear and after my brain thanks me it starts wandering around aimlessly. It feels GREAT. It feels light, and empty in the way that you want to feel light and empty. Like a little fairy.
In lieu of riding the rest of my days out in bed, I’ve been trying to figure out how to get that feeling in everyday life. How to quiet the voices that are harping on me to make my blog- and my parenting style- better. I’ve contemplated screaming SHUT UP really loudly every time a self-judgmental thought begins to creep in, but that might prove to be slightly alarming for those around me.
Instead, I signed up for a damn class on Creativebug, and guess who my teacher is? Lisa Congdon! Yep, she’s teaching me how to explore cool art techniques in a sketchbook, because my art-making voice also tends to be judgmental. It’s so refreshing to be able to let go of coming up with my own ideas and follow someone else’s lead for a change. I’ve decided to simply copy what she is showing us how to do- not exactly, of course, but I’ll use her style and techniques as a stepping-off point, and go from there.
What I love about this class is that it’s set up as a “work-along”, which means it’s a 4 part class, spread out over the entire month. I actually ran out to Michael’s yesterday and spent $65 on materials for the class, and I’m giddy.
I signed up for a month of Creativebug, and at $4.95 per month, you can binge-watch classes if you want. I actually contemplated doing that, but I think I’ll refrain and give myself the gift of an ongoing subscription. It feels good to be spending a small amount of money on MYFREAKINGSELF to learn new crafty techniques.
Next up will be Lisa’s Basic Line Drawing class, there are a couple of classes that use the Cricut machine, (which I’ve been wanting to learn more about, and am still baffled by), a leather wrap bracelet class, and several printmaking classes.
The best part is that I can check out every single class on the damn site and click off of the ones I find boring (um, cake decorating), and stay with the good ones. Or just watch parts of classes. Or watch every single one of them and make up drinking games to go with them.
Anyway, use this link to try it free for 2 weeks, and you can check out the first of the 4 classes in the sketchbook workalong I am doing. (The next one goes live on January 13.) Take the class with me! Take it!
Or at least tell me what you will be doing this year – just for you.