Do you know what is fun? I do. It’s having 2 uninterrupted hours on a Thursday morning to paint with wax.
I signed Bex up for 2 year old preschool for just this very reason. I wake up at 7:30, and run to my little studio to turn on my wax pots. (No, I don’t talk sexy to them.) Then I get the kids reasonably dressed, shove some food in their faces, and send them off into the world. After a big dumb fist pump in the air, I make some iced green tea and get all busy.
I have a studio set up in our basement. It’s a kitchenette area, and it’s got great light and is right next to the bathroom in case I have to take an emergency pee. I’ll show you my studio another time- studio tours are fun.
I find it much easier to fit time into my day to write posts than to paint. Painting requires set-up, concentration and space. Things I don’t have with a tiny toddler around. With my laptop or camera, I can pretty much set up anywhere and leave it and come back to it as I please.
I also have built up making art into being way more stressful than it should be. When I was selling paintings, I got into the mindset of making what I thought would sell, and I can’t seem to shake that.
So…. I made a plan. I will only make little painting-sketches. They have to be fast and not planned out. And I am trying to turn off my internal dialogue as I paint- which is proving difficult. My internal ‘you suck’ voice is loud.
Here are the first paintings I’m willing to show…
Like any good sketches, they represent a beginning- a sort of dipping my toes back in without a whole lot of commitment. LALALA I’m not committing LALALA I’m just playin’ around. All casual and shit. LALALA